justrun-.

i tried so hard ; but in the end it didn't even matter

i made a big mistake when i stopped going for aps training.

actually i've made a lot of big mistakes...

if you happen to see me in a wheelchair in the near future, don't forget to say hi.

nothing in the past that i can change now. future. think of future...

this is like THE worst nightmare come true. i knew those nightmares i was having were trying to tell me sth.

sorry for incoherence. it's so weird. why do i feel like i'm left with nothing to be proud of anymore.

just in case i can recover from this stupid injury, i promise myself that i will stop deproving. i will think of my training prog more carefully. i have learnt that aps training and track work is more beneficial for me than the tas training sessions. as soon as i get off probation (please be soon) i will be wiser in my choice of training progs. may nothing get in the way of this.

wishlist:

2 good, uninjured rectus femorises (FAST)
nice track training sessions that will improve both speed and stamina
nice swimming sessions that will improve both brstroke and freestyle
noticable improvement in track, swimming and tri
all that without dying in the process

can't help but wonder if i made one of the biggest mistakes ever by choosing to join ---. okay if all else fails i just want to be able to run and swim like i used to. you really really don't know what you have till you've lost it.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

put on her shoes at [19:50]

and took [20050707] strides

it's the passion that drives you